"Make It In America"

So I'm currently listening to a song called "Make It In America" and I can completely relate to it. Listen to the song and you will know what I mean... well not really until I tell you my story.

 It started on August 24, 2011, the first day of school. But for me, it's a new world, a foreign country. I came from a private school that I went to for seven years. I tried to fit in. I thought that would make everything better, but no. Being myself was all. All I had to do was adjust to this new world. I found people who understood me like my old friends, maybe they understand me better. I love them, all of them. I made mistakes and I learned from them. I found out what love really feels like (don't judge me please). Public school is like a roller coaster ride for me and I'm almost at the end of my first round. Then I got 5 more to go. I see my future and I want to be there. I'm happy and I'm never letting go of this feeling. Thank you guys for making my first year in a new school the best. You helped be become a better person. I love you guys! Just... thank you a trillion times!!!

 With the biggest heart,

Lauren   

<3 (I wish I could make it bigger)

P.S. I cried the whole time when I made this post.... :')

 

Got a one way ticket down a 2 way street

Got the wind in my hair and there's dust on my feet 

I'm just trying to make it in America 

Only thing to my name is an old t-shirt 

Faded 1985 from a stones concert 

And I'm dying to make in America 

And I'm singing the words to my favorite song

With the rag top down and my glasses on 

And I'm driving straight through America 

I wanna taste the sun 

Baby I'm born to run 

I got a feeling that I'm not the only one

I, I wanna show some skin 

Yeah baby I need the ocean 

And you can stop me now I've got my heart in motion 

I want to make it in America

Make it in America 

I can see my star sunset and vine

Gonna carve my name in the Hollywood sign 

Yeah I gotta, gotta make it in America 

See me wearin a smile, even if I'm broke

I'll be singing the words from a song I wrote 

And I called it make it in America 

I wanna taste the sun 

Baby I'm born to run 

I got a feeling that I'm not the only one

I, I wanna show some skin 

Baby I need the ocean 

And you can stop me now I've got my heart in motion 

I wanna make it in America

Make it in America 

I can feel the sweat dripping down my face 

I can hear my heart as it starts to race 

Yeah sometimes this worlds such a lonely place 

If I just push on I know that 

I wanna taste the sun 

Baby I'm born to run 

I got a feeling that I'm not the only one

I, I wanna show some skin 

Baby I need the ocean 

And you can stop me now I've got my heart in motion 

I wanna make it in America

Make it in America

How I Want To Be Remembered and How Will You Guys Remember Me....

Okay so during Core today, we elaborated on how we want to be remembered and who we are. So here's a few questions:

1. Is the person you are now the person you want to be the rest of your life?
2. Do you think back when you were younger and think "Why was I like that?" (Because you will do that... a lot... I done it plenty of times... It's not a good feeling)
3. What do people think of you?
4. ^Would you care? (Because you should... Just saying)
5. If you had to change yourself, what would you be like?
6. How is the person you are now affect your future?
7. Has your usual attitude affected daily life?
8. ^If you changed it, how do you think others would think?
9. Have you set goals?
10. ^Do you think you're overdoing it?
11. ^^Are you pushing yourself too hard?
12. ^^^Did you have any friends or family there to appreciate what you were working on?
13.  What is the first instance of being in the state of flow that you can remember?    
14. ^Did anyone try to support you to stay like this?
15.   In your opinion, what’s the most amazing idea you’ve ever had?
16.  ^Why was this amazing?
17.  Looking back, what was the dumbest idea or venture you’ve ever embarked on?
18. ^Why was it dumb?
19. ^^ What thought-process led you to this idea in the first place?
20.  Before you pass away, what’s one mark you want to leave on the world?
21. What are the barriers to achieving this right now?
22. What is the next step to achieving this?
23. What do you do every day between 6-10am?
24. What do you do every day between 10am – 2pm?
25. What do you do every day between 2pm – 6pm?
26. What do you do every night between 6pm – 12am?
27. Describe your first undertaking or achievement that was successful.
28. Describe another undertaking that was successful.
29. What was the difference between the two?
30. How do you feel about money?
31. Have you ever been given significant responsibility over others? If so, how did you act?
32. How do you react to compliments?
33. Do you like to compete? How do you see rivals?
34. Do you like your day job (if you have one)?
35. Who do you look up to (past or present people)?
36. Why do you look up to them?
37. What do you and your role models share in common?
38. Where are you different?
39. Do you believe that some people are naturally geniuses, or naturally just more talented in what you’re passionate about?
40. How do you respond when you see people that claim to be overnight successes, or simply lucky?
41. What was the last argument you had, and what was your position?
42. How do you react when someone is hostile towards you?
43. How do you react to failure?
44. What drives you to keep pressing on after failure?
45. Which do you enjoy more: The feeling of achieving the goal, or the process of trying to reach the goal?
46. If you never had to work, where would you spend your time, and what would you spend your time on?
47. What do you fear most?
48. How would you react if the above happened?
49. What makes someone an expert in a specific field?
50. What is your dream?
51. Describe a complex situation in which you had a lot to learn. How did you go about learning, and did you enjoy this process?
52. Would people say you’re someone who diligently pursues every single detail, or are you more of a big-picture person?
53. What difficult decisions have you made recently, and would you make this same decision?
54. Describe your decision-making approach.
55. What maxims or beliefs do you live by?
56. Do you like facing concrete, short-term challenges; or do you enjoy conceptual, abstract long-term challenges?
57. Are you more of a visionary, or more of a person that makes stuff happen today? Why?
58. What’s the biggest risk you’ve taken in recent years?
59. Was the risk worth it? Why or why not.
60. Describe a situation in which the pressure to compromise your integrity were the strongest you’ve ever felt.
61. Are you better at starting a lot of projects, or squeezing results out of fewer projects?
62. Do you believe in asking for forgiveness rather than permission?
63. What sort of mood swings do you experience? Where and what does this usually stem from?
64. Describe your sense of humor.
65. When there’s a difference of opinion, do you confront others indirectly or directly?
66. When was the last time you put your foot in your mouth, and what was it about?
67. Are you a natural leader? If so, cite how you are and why.
68. What drives you everyday? Why do you get out of bed? (besides putting bread on the table)
69. What pace do you work at? Are you fast, slow or moderate worker? 

Sorry if I'm asking too much but if you can answer these questions, that would be great! If you can't answer all of them, try to answer some and make sure to put the indicated number of the question so I know which one you're answering. I took the time to answer all of them and it made me think about who I am. So answer in the comments below and think, "How will people remember me? Do I want to leave a good mark on this world?"

With extreme <3,

Lucky

 

Awkward Day #2

Okay so this isn't 'bout Mr.Deer, but 'bout Lauren H. Cuz of you Lauren I'm practically addicted to K-Pop!!!! So like I'm listening to 'Love Dust' and my mom walks in and starts yelling "OMG YOU LIKE BIG BANG TOO!!!!" And I had 2 simultaneous reactions in my sub-conscious thingy:
1.) Oh dear God...
2.) Mom shut up I'm doing homework!!!! Plz go away and watch ur Korean soap operas (yeah we're not Korean but I guess u get it....)!!!!

So I say instead is, "Umm.... This is what school does to me (LOLz)!!!!" And she walks away!!!! So today's life lesson is "Act crazy to your mom and she'll leave you alone...." This may not have to w/ anything but you'll get it.... I might be confused if this does have to do w/ anything so.... yeah....

TE QUIERO PERSONES,
Lucky <3

Dragging=Rape????

Okay so today was supposed to be the best day ever that turned into the most awkward-est day ever. So someone (Jin) was supposed to tell Mr. Deer (U know this people get w/ the program) to ask me out during lunch, but then the telling turned into forcing (I mean trying to drag him over to where I was). For 1.), he didn't ask me out and 2.) Life became more awkward at 1:33 pm. So to explain, this is what happend:

Me: Hey Youngseo, did Jin say anything about me during lunch????
Mr.Deer: Oh, you mean that guy *points at Jin*....????
Me: Yeah....
Mr.Deer: Yeah he tried to rape me!!!! He tried to rape me!!!!
Jin: HEY DID HE ASK YOU OUT YET!!!!
Me:*Closes eyes w/ embarrassment* 
My inner voice, sub-conscience thingy: DUDE YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO SAY THAT OUT LOUD!!!!
Me: *Walks away and ignores him*
My inner voice, sub-conscience thingy: Wha-???? Why why why why???? 

 Okay maybe to you may not be as awkward but if you were there, the awkwardness was literally in the air!!!! And Jin is was still trying to get him to ask me out after school too!!!! So maybe in Mr. Deer's mind it's like "Oh God he's trying to rape me in public again!!!!"

So damn you Jin.... Damn You!!!!

And P.S. followers, W/ everything that has to do w/ "....", "????" , and "!!!!",  I always put 4.... idk I just noticed this now....

W/ love,

Lucky <3