Warning: This is full of inside jokes! If U don't understand these, don't bother trying to get them....
As you two know, we have a nickname for him (I don't want to mention his name anymore). And Keerthana you call him Turtle... Well this is where Lauren H. comes in and Keerthana I don't think you'd care about this, but Lauren....
He@ling C@mp W/ BIGBANG
The reason is that T.O.P's nickname is... wait for it... TURTLE!!!
But you guys should also watch this cuz not everyone's perfect.... that includes these handsome people... ;p .....
So this doesn't have to do with life lessons, this is just a recommendation....
U MUST WATCH AVATAR THE LAST AIRBENDER AND AVATAR THE LEGEND OF KORRA!!!!
What inspired me to say this was the season finale of The Legend of Korra!! It had the best ending and twists ever <--- that doesn't make sense LOL!! I just loved it!!
So watch the first series Avatar: The Last Airbender to understand Avatar: The Legend Of Korra cuz it's AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So I'm watching like 3 different Korean Dramas so here they are:
Boys over Flowers: 5 stars ~ True Drama and Romance (If you like 'Romeo and Juliet' w/o the ending) --- finished
What's Up: 4.5 stars ~ W/ KANG DAESUNG!!!!!!!!!!! It's a way better version than Glee where they don't sing in random places... And if you want to see Daesung at his most adorable.....
I Am Sam: 4.8 stars ~ You like comedy? You like T.O.P? It's all here. See T.O.P at his sexiest in a funny way... (That's all).... Very Funny....
IRIS: 4.7 ~ You like espionage? You like assassins? You think T.O.P would be sexy as an assassin? <------ That's in this show! Spoiler Alerts ~ Awesome Parts -- Ever time he speaks English (idk if true... read in Wikipedia... I would think it's sexy) and holds a gun of some sort....
Okay so today I celebrated Father's Day with my family by eating at a secret pizzeria in the Cosmopolitan. We got an awesome hotel room at the Vdara and has an amazing view (only in the opinions of the romantic people unfortunately... yes I will always miss him). But I'll try to stay happy.... it's summer after all. I shouldn't worry about how I'll feel in a few weeks when we get off break.... Well, this is a small post, but I needed to do something besides watch Korean Drama and listen to KPOP...
Life Lesson: Don't always worry about the future... It'll make the present more positive....
Okay... so it may be a little late for an overview.... but I was busy so might as well do this now. And Lauren H., I gave you the opportunity to laugh.... you should have taken it. I wouldn't have minded.... Well, anyway so umm.... well just to tell you guys who don't know what the hell is going on, It happened when I went to school early and I overheard some people say that Mr. Deer was moving back to Korea for five years then there I was, practically running to the restroom and crying my eyes out. After like five minutes I fixed my make-up, which I'm getting better at since it didn't look like I was even crying, and tried to find a place for some alone time until Emily and Lauren comforted me (at different times). Later I made a promise that I'll never will fall for someone ever again (and without cats nor any other pets Manaal). Moments after with my head down in sorrow, Lauren calls on me while with her BF and I turn around seeing Lauren pointing with her thumb toward Mr. Deer walking aimlessly down the hall. I felt happy, freaked out, relieved, and confused so I fast walked toward the bathroom to clean out my mixed emotion frenzy. The moment I saw him was like a really hard BS (I forgot what it was Angie so I don't mix that up with bull shit) and fireworks. In Lauren's mind was when I turned around, I run up to him and give him a hug (?) and say that I was glad that he didn't leave yet (??), or something like that. That would be something coming from Lauren's colorful imagination....
Well for one thing I'm still confused. IS HE MOVING BACK TO KOREA OR NOT! Because if he is then I may have to keep that promise. I can never keep a long distance crush, love thingy because at the end it will always end in a heartbreak, unless you now that person truly loves you. He was my actual first crush, besides that other one because for 1.) it was a phase and 2.) I could have been lying to myself if you know what I mean. This is going to sound weird, but he's was my first crush and the first that I've actually fallen in love with (I hated to admit that). So Lauren, maybe I wanted to do what you said, but maybe even beg him not to leave. I don't think I can let him go. I just hope he's happy one day in a world where I don't need to exist. So I'll get pour my heart out here because this took me a day to think about.
And if somehow he ever reads this, I'd like to tell him this, I forgot to tell you goodbye, I'll miss you, and I hope you'll be happy because I know that there's someone out there that will love you better than I do. All I need to do is tell you is how I feel. So here I go.... I love you.... And that's probably not enough to describe my feelings. And I don't think you owe me that hug anymore.... All I needed was for you to know how I feel. At first I thought I could express that through a hug, but no. All I had to do was tell you. So once again, 사랑해 (Sa-Rang-He). I hope I used the right term because I usually get to mixed up with 사랑해요 (Sa-Rang-He-Yo) which I think is what you say to family members and friends...
Well anyway I just hope you're happy people! I admitted something that I couldn't before! So you know my deepest, darkest secret now (with the exception of Lauren). H.A.A.S.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So yesterday I watched four movies at Hacienda for $6. How did I pull it off? I call it being stealthy and reasonable. For one thing, yesterday the staff was in the hallways making sure everyone wasn't sneaking into other movies. And I sneaked in outside food. Since all the good movies were out, my uncle and I decided to watched all of them. So the life lesson is, "use your money wisely when it's a good opportunity." So anyway, we watched "The Avengers", "The Dictator", "Chernobyl Diaries", and "Snow White and The Huntsman."
The Avengers
"The Best Movie Ever It's Worth Watching Twice!" Because it is. And if you haven't seen it.... you must see it. If you do see it, by chance is that you might either might think Captain America and/or Hawkeye is frickin' hawt (maybe I do or not...)!!!!
The Avengers- 5 stars for Comic Lovers (like me) 4 stars for people who don't know anything about comics
The Dictator
I watch a funny movie, but it was ruined by 4 year old kids with terrible parents. What kind of parent would let their 4 year old kids watch a RATED R MOVIE W/ WAY TOO MUCH SEXUAL CONTENT???!!!! I have never seen any kind of parent that is that stupid!!! However, the movie was funny in a racist type way... I think the funniest part was when towards the end when they were practically trashing democracy even though it's true.
The Dictator- 3 Stars
Chernobyl Diaries
Well you have to know what the Chernobyl Disaster is. So basically it was a catastrophic nuclear accident that occurred on 26 April 1986 at the Chernobyl Nuclear Power Plant in Ukraine (then officially Ukrainian SSR), which was under the direct jurisdiction of the central authorities of the Soviet Union.
An explosion and fire released large quantities of radioactive
contamination into the atmosphere, which spread over much of Western
USSR and Europe. It is widely considered to have been the worst nuclear power plant accident in history, and is one of only two classified as a level 7 event on the International Nuclear Event Scale (the other being the Fukushima Daiichi nuclear disaster in 2011).
The battle to contain the contamination and avert a greater catastrophe
ultimately involved over 500,000 workers and cost an estimated
18 billion rubles, crippling the Soviet economy (from Wikipedia). The movie is just based the accident, seven stupid people, and radioactive infected mutant-people things. It lacks suspense and originality despite the scary looking atmosphere. And I say, PARANORMAL ACTIVITY WAS BETTER!!!!
Chernobyl Diaries- 2 Stars
Snow White and The Huntsman
The movie was great, but it was predictable because you know the story and Kristen Stewart's British accent wasn't believable. That's pretty much it.
Snow White and The Huntsman- 3 1/2 Stars
The person who thinks that Chris Evans aka Captain America and Jeremy Renner aka Hawkeye is hawt,
So I'm currently listening to a song called "Make It In America" and I can completely relate to it. Listen to the song and you will know what I mean... well not really until I tell you my story.
It started on August 24, 2011, the first day of school. But for me, it's a new world, a foreign country. I came from a private school that I went to for seven years. I tried to fit in. I thought that would make everything better, but no. Being myself was all. All I had to do was adjust to this new world. I found people who understood me like my old friends, maybe they understand me better. I love them, all of them. I made mistakes and I learned from them. I found out what love really feels like (don't judge me please). Public school is like a roller coaster ride for me and I'm almost at the end of my first round. Then I got 5 more to go. I see my future and I want to be there. I'm happy and I'm never letting go of this feeling. Thank you guys for making my first year in a new school the best. You helped be become a better person. I love you guys! Just... thank you a trillion times!!!
With the biggest heart,
Lauren
<3 (I wish I could make it bigger)
P.S. I cried the whole time when I made this post....:')
Got a one way ticket down a 2
way street
Got the wind in my hair and there's
dust on my feet
I'm just trying to make it in
America
Only thing to my name is an
old t-shirt
Faded 1985 from a stones
concert
And I'm dying to make in America
And I'm singing the words to
my favorite song
With the rag top down and my
glasses on
And I'm driving straight
through America
I wanna taste the sun
Baby I'm born to run
I got a feeling that I'm not
the only one
I, I wanna show some
skin
Yeah baby I need the
ocean
And you can stop me now I've
got my heart in motion
I want to make it in America
Make it in America
I can see my star sunset and
vine
Gonna carve my name in the Hollywood
sign
Yeah I gotta, gotta make it
in America
See me wearin a smile, even
if I'm broke
I'll be singing the words
from a song I wrote
And I called it make it in America
I wanna taste the sun
Baby I'm born to run
I got a feeling that I'm not
the only one
I, I wanna show some
skin
Baby I need the ocean
And you can stop me now I've
got my heart in motion
I wanna make it in America
Make it in America
I can feel the sweat dripping
down my face
I can hear my heart as it
starts to race
Yeah sometimes this worlds
such a lonely place
If I just push on I know
that
I wanna taste the sun
Baby I'm born to run
I got a feeling that I'm not
the only one
I, I wanna show some
skin
Baby I need the ocean
And you can stop me now I've
got my heart in motion
Okay so during Core today, we elaborated on how we want to be remembered and who we are. So here's a few questions:
Is the person you are now the person you want to be the rest of your life?
Do you think back when you were younger and think "Why was I like that?" (Because you will do that... a lot... I done it plenty of times... It's not a good feeling)
What do people think of you?
^Would you care? (Because you should... Just saying)
If you had to change yourself, what would you be like?
How is the person you are now affect your future?
Has your usual attitude affected daily life?
^If you changed it, how do you think others would think?
Have you set goals?
^Do you think you're overdoing it?
^^Are you pushing yourself too hard?
^^^Did you have any friends or family there to appreciate what you were working on?
What is the first instance of being in the state of flow that you can remember?
^Did anyone try to support you to stay like this?
In your opinion, what’s the most amazing idea you’ve ever had?
^Why was this amazing?
Looking back, what was the dumbest idea or venture you’ve ever embarked on?
^Why was it dumb?
^^ What thought-process led you to this idea in the first place?
Before you pass away, what’s one mark you want to leave on the world?
What are the barriers to achieving this right now?
What is the next step to achieving this?
What do you do every day between 6-10am?
What do you do every day between 10am – 2pm?
What do you do every day between 2pm – 6pm?
What do you do every night between 6pm – 12am?
Describe your first undertaking or achievement that was successful.
Describe another undertaking that was successful.
What was the difference between the two?
How do you feel about money?
Have you ever been given significant responsibility over others? If so, how did you act?
How do you react to compliments?
Do you like to compete? How do you see rivals?
Do you like your day job (if you have one)?
Who do you look up to (past or present people)?
Why do you look up to them?
What do you and your role models share in common?
Where are you different?
Do you believe that some people are naturally geniuses, or naturally just more talented in what you’re passionate about?
How do you respond when you see people that claim to be overnight successes, or simply lucky?
What was the last argument you had, and what was your position?
How do you react when someone is hostile towards you?
How do you react to failure?
What drives you to keep pressing on after failure?
Which do you enjoy more: The feeling of achieving the goal, or the process of trying to reach the goal?
If you never had to work, where would you spend your time, and what would you spend your time on?
What do you fear most?
How would you react if the above happened?
What makes someone an expert in a specific field?
What is your dream?
Describe a complex situation in which you had a lot to learn. How did you go about learning, and did you enjoy this process?
Would people say you’re someone who diligently pursues every single detail, or are you more of a big-picture person?
What difficult decisions have you made recently, and would you make this same decision?
Describe your decision-making approach.
What maxims or beliefs do you live by?
Do you like facing concrete, short-term challenges; or do you enjoy conceptual, abstract long-term challenges?
Are you more of a visionary, or more of a person that makes stuff happen today? Why?
What’s the biggest risk you’ve taken in recent years?
Was the risk worth it? Why or why not.
Describe a situation in which the pressure to compromise your integrity were the strongest you’ve ever felt.
Are you better at starting a lot of projects, or squeezing results out of fewer projects?
Do you believe in asking for forgiveness rather than permission?
What sort of mood swings do you experience? Where and what does this usually stem from?
Describe your sense of humor.
When there’s a difference of opinion, do you confront others indirectly or directly?
When was the last time you put your foot in your mouth, and what was it about?
Are you a natural leader? If so, cite how you are and why.
What drives you everyday? Why do you get out of bed? (besides putting bread on the table)
What pace do you work at? Are you fast, slow or moderate worker?
Sorry if I'm asking too much but if you can answer these questions, that would be great! If you can't answer all of them, try to answer some and make sure to put the indicated number of the question so I know which one you're answering. I took the time to answer all of them and it made me think about who I am. So answer in the comments below and think, "How will people remember me? Do I want to leave a good mark on this world?"
Okay so this isn't 'bout Mr.Deer, but 'bout Lauren H. Cuz of you Lauren I'm practically addicted to K-Pop!!!! So like I'm listening to 'Love Dust' and my mom walks in and starts yelling "OMG YOU LIKE BIG BANG TOO!!!!" And I had 2 simultaneous reactions in my sub-conscious thingy:
1.) Oh dear God...
2.) Mom shut up I'm doing homework!!!! Plz go away and watch ur Korean soap operas (yeah we're not Korean but I guess u get it....)!!!!
So I say instead is, "Umm.... This is what school does to me (LOLz)!!!!" And she walks away!!!! So today's life lesson is "Act crazy to your mom and she'll leave you alone...." This may not have to w/ anything but you'll get it.... I might be confused if this does have to do w/ anything so.... yeah....
Okay so today was supposed to be the best day ever that turned into the most awkward-est day ever. So someone (Jin) was supposed to tell Mr. Deer (U know this people get w/ the program) to ask me out during lunch, but then the telling turned into forcing (I mean trying to drag him over to where I was). For 1.), he didn't ask me out and 2.) Life became more awkward at 1:33 pm. So to explain, this is what happend:
Me: Hey Youngseo, did Jin say anything about me during lunch???? Mr.Deer: Oh, you mean that guy *points at Jin*....???? Me: Yeah.... Mr.Deer: Yeah he tried to rape me!!!! He tried to rape me!!!! Jin: HEY DID HE ASK YOU OUT YET!!!! Me:*Closes eyes w/ embarrassment* My inner voice, sub-conscience thingy: DUDE YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO SAY THAT OUT LOUD!!!! Me: *Walks away and ignores him* My inner voice, sub-conscience thingy: Wha-???? Why why why why????
Okay maybe to you may not be as awkward but if you were there, the awkwardness was literally in the air!!!! And Jin is was still trying to get him to ask me out after school too!!!! So maybe in Mr. Deer's mind it's like "Oh God he's trying to rape me in public again!!!!"
So damn you Jin.... Damn You!!!!
And P.S. followers, W/ everything that has to do w/ "....", "????" , and "!!!!", I always put 4.... idk I just noticed this now....
Recently, I got over my last crush. Some people get over them right away, and some... well, don't. I got over him right away. He's an effin' jerk, ass of a person. Why did I like him in the first place? IDK, but anyway all I remember (this I kept a secret until now) was dreaming about going to the dance and he walks me home and we kissed... cliche but that's what I dreamed about... not a lie. But now I want to talk about how we see people. First, you guys saw me as the new girl that goes by Megan, then not so new girl, then gleek geek of Geek Squad (yes alter ego I mentioned that and it's still trademarked by Best Buy), then Alter Ego, then Alter Ego that likes a jerk, then now Alter Ego that got over The Jerk and in love with a really cute, smart and sometimes forgetful Korean Guy. You see people by looks, personality, or how you know them, like how we people (I mean friends at school) look at Neil as The Jerk Face that in the future will make the worst decision of his life. You know what I mean... so this life lesson is if you know a person that, you know, has a bad 'history', don't bother and choose someone that you know will make the right decisions. And remember to always charge your phone at night.
Okay... today I may have lost the trust from my friends (one of the worst things you can lose in friendship). I kind have lied about who I had a crush on... well I should have known that having a crush on a certain guy is something you shouldn't be embarrassed of.
Crushes on guys of the past that I've had (starting from my old school):
1.) Nerdy yet humorous and strange
2.) Effing Tall, Jerk, ass, player, and has a bad choice on who to ask out, maybe (Angie, Manaal, and Alter Ego know what I'm talking about.
3.) Bossy, rude, and yet (I just noticed as I typed) cute.... But it was fake....
Now I know I'm making the right choice on this one:
1{and maybe last}.) Tall, Korean, smart, kind, sometimes forgetful, and kinda cute (I have to get used to saying that). When I mean forgetful, I mean he forgot I sat next to him (Youngseo) and Jerk Face (Neil).
Thanks with complete love, Lauren aka Lucky aka Megan aka Alter Ego.... And so on....
P.S. Alter Ego... Remember, like the opposite sides of the magnet...
